by Amanda Bonar
For over 10 years I suffered with painful swollen joints, oppressive fatigue, and other symptoms. One doctor insisted it was Lyme disease; another diagnosed thyroid ailments, etc., etc. ad nauseum.
One day I noticed that in addition to these other symptoms, the skin on my hands (my most important part because I am an artist) started to peel away and became cracked and would sometimes bleed.
As time went on it appeared on my head, elbows, and other areas. Doctors diagnosed “dermatitis,” “eczema,” etc. Finally I was sent to a rheumatologist who diagnosed “rheumatoid arthritis.” It was so bad I had to quit my job as a teacher, which I loved.
I went through the usual battery of tests and x-rays, and started on the usual treatment for autoimmune disorders. Which was fine and seemed to help.
Then, during my treatments one day, a care provider remarked that patients usually required medications for the rest of their lives. Somewhat dismayed, I thought to myself that this is not what I want to live with.
I began to ask myself, “Why have I manifested this disease?” Shortly thereafter, with meditation, I realized that my body was crying out that my spirit needed attention. Unless this was attended to, I would continue to decline.
Alarmed, I soon realized I was being called to change my path and do what I was meant to do. With some trepidation I began to express myself without suppressing who I am, without guild or worry. I allowed myself to be myself. I am enough.
Over a short period of time, while continuing my treatments, I began to improve. After more time, I was able to come off all medication for my arthritis and all with my doctor’s approval. He was amazed.
I continue to be a practicing artist and find if I neglect this my symptoms reappear (though in a milder form). And they go away when I use my hand to express myself.
My spirit and mind is truly my builder and when I listen to it, I am the person I am meant to be.
About the author:
Mindy is the mother of one daughter and two sons, wife of one (30 years). “Family is my true life work.” Involved in Cayce work since 1980. Interested in mind/body connection to self- healing since having experienced this personally.
Mindy is the East Tennessee State greeter and Core Team member since 2011.
She loves to read, scrapbook, and garden.